“Never allow someone to be your priority while allowing yourself to be their option.” — Mark Twain

Fuck you too. She’s going to be too tired to come tomorrow because she decided to start a shuffle session that won’t be over till dawn. She doesn’t give a shit. I’m done asking. I’m done.

I need to downgrade this relationship.

Have you ever been in ____? Horrible isn’t it? It makes you so vulnerable. It opens your chest and it opens your heart and it means that someone can get inside you and mess you up.You build up all these defenses, then one stupid preson, no different from any other stupid person, wanders into your life….You give them a piece of you. They didn’t ask for it.They did something dumb one day, like kiss you or smile at you, and then your life isn’t your own anymore. ____ takes hostages. It gets inside you. It eats you out and leaves you crying in the darkness, so simple a phrase like ‘maybe we should be just friends’ turns into a glass splinter working its way into your heart. It hurts. Not just in the imagination. Not just in the mind. It’s a soul-hurt, a real gets-inside-you-and-rips-you-apart pain. I hate ____.

Lowering expectations for a happier life

Don’t ever get too comfortable and start expecting things from anyone, including your girlfriend, SL. Lower your expectations for her and you won’t get hurt as easily. Don’t make promises. The easiest thing to do would be to not listen what she has to say. Chances are she won’t do it anyway. If you don’t believe anything that comes out of her mouth then there’s nothing to worry about. Winner.
I’m going to keep repeating this to myself and one day I’ll forget to repeat it to myself and maybe it’ll be true. By then, I will have most likely removed her from my life.

The problem with what I’ve written here is that I am incapable of any of it… I just want her to care about my feelings a little more…

Oh Google~


Google says get out in a i’mnotogoingtomatchanyarticlesforyouandtellyouwhatireallythink kind of way.


Mending a Broken Trust. (First Fight)

I deliberately publish this publicly on my personal site hoping that my girlfriend, SL, will see this one day.

How do you forgive someone for breaking your trust…? I have a needy kind of personality. Don’t worry, she does too.

I feel like I’ve been making an effort to forgive her; But, I have felt a daily recurring animosity towards her for the past 2 weeks (since it happened) for the act she did to break my trust. At least once a day I’m reminded of how she’d betrayed my trust by breaking a promise that she’d reaffirmed over and over the week before breaking it. The worst thing about this whole ordeal for me is that so many things make me jealous now, even her removal of my posts on her Facebook… As stupid as it sounds. I hate this feeling.

I hope this is true…

How First Fights Make Relationships Stronger

First fights define relationships. They reaffirm the couple’s commitment to one another and if they are worked through properly they can make a relationship stronger. While it is always scary to fight for the first time it is important to acknowledge that fights are normal and that they happen in every close relationship.

Why you fight is important but it is how you fight that determines whether or not the conflict will strengthen your bond or stretch it to the limit. Break ups are not the inevitable outcome of the first fight although fearing it will lead to a break up is normal.

If a first fight leads to a break up it simply means the foundation of the relationship was not very strong. For good relationships the first fight will solidify things. By wanting to work through conflict rather than run away couples show each other that they are there for a long time, not just for a good time. This realization is an important one.

First fights don’t have to be negative. They are a sign that your relationship is moving to a new, more intimate and more committed level. Isn’t that a good thing?


In business, you must use inception.


So there’s a problem that I’ve been having in the work place So I’ve been given a chance to improve upon something at work.

Most of the time I come off condescending and rude to people when I really don’t mean to. But how do I tell someone that there’s something they haven’t completed and I need them to complete it in order for me to finish my side of the job.  I would say something like “I’ve spoken with X and we agreed that there is no need to complete this section because it was not ever positioned to go out into production. I’ve decided to wait for the final implementation to be completed before continuing my work on that todo.” Instead I’ve been instructed to  push the ball over to X and say “X, you know more about this than I do. Can you fill everyone in on the progress of this todo?”

When bringing up anything negative about someone else: If they know about the issues, let them repeat them. If they don’t, let the superiors know and they’ll use their powers of inception to get it done.

CodeIgniter Anti-Sopa Code

Here’s a copy of the code I’ve written and placed on the top of Homes.org. Feel free to use it however you want. Note: I’m not responsible for anything you do with it ;)
<? if(date(‘Ymd’, time()) == ’20120118′ && !$this->session->userdata(‘sopa’)): ?>
<? $this->session->set_userdata(‘sopa’, 1) ?>
<script type=”text/javascript”>
$(‘.sopa_wrapper’).delay(200).animate({‘height’:50, ‘padding-top’:25, ‘padding-bottom’: 25});
$(‘.sopa_wrapper’).delay(0).animate({‘height’:0, ‘padding-top’:0, ‘padding-bottom’: 0});
<style type=”text/css”>

overflow: hidden;
box-shadow: 0px 0px 10px #000;
padding: 0px;
position: fixed;
z-index: 4000000;
top: 0px; width: 100%;
background-image: url(‘http://www.alvincheung.com/sopa/background.png’);
height: 0px;

width: 1060px;
margin: 0 auto;
.sopa p{
float: left;
width: 700px;
margin: 8px 12px;
text-align: left;

padding: 8px;
float: left;
color: #fff;
margin: 5px;
position: relative;
top: -20px;
border-radius: 5px;
width: 150px;
text-align: left;
text-decoration: none;

background-color: #c00;
border: 1px solid #900;

border:    1px solid #fff;
box-shadow: 0px 0px 6px #f00;

background-color: #00c;
border: 1px solid #009;

border:    1px solid #fff;
box-shadow: 0px 0px 6px #00f;

float: right;
width: 48px;
height: 48px;
background-image: url(‘http://www.alvincheung.com/sopa/close_bw.png’);
margin: 0 20px;

background-image: url(‘http://www.alvincheung.com/sopa/close.png’);
cursor: pointer;

<img src=”http://www.alvincheung.com/sopa/warning.png” style=”float: left;”/>
SOPA and PIPA damage the internet. Today we fight back. Please take today as a day of focus to
<br />learn about these destructive bills and do what you can to prevent them from becoming a reality.
<a href=”http://americancensorship.org/modal/call-form.html” rel=”nofollow” target=”_blank”><img src=”http://www.alvincheung.com/sopa/phone_telephone_call.png” />Make a call</a>
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<? endif ?>

Preliminary Linup for Electric Daisy Carnival 2011 Dallas

Paul van Dyk
Flux Pavilion & Doctor P
Wolfgang Gartner
Gabriel & Dresden
Markus Schulz
High Contrast
Dirtyphonics Live
12th Planet
Feed Me
Green Velvet
Mark Farina
Morgan Page
Mt. Eden
Super 8 & Tab
Fred Everything
DJ Dan
Filo & Peri
Justin Martin
Bart B More
Manufactured Superstars
Demarkus Lewis
Brett Johnson
plus more tba

Nocturnal Festival 2011 (Texas)

So uh, that was one of the best weekends of my life. I met some cool people. Gloved with some glovers. Learned to shuffle. Was allowed to shuffle/skank/glove on stage hahaha I’m not sure what that’s called but it was really fun. Met a dj. Tried to hoolahoop…. TRIED TO lol. Almost threw up from the amount of bass coming out of Porter’s set. Got crazy in the pit. Chilled in an amazing field under the stars and lazers. Bassnectar, Zed’s Dead, Avicii, Above & Beyond, Gareth emery, infected mushroom, and front row VIP pit for kaskade. Pure Awesome.

Up in the air

I’ve emptied my backpack, now all I need to do is figure out what to put back in it.

How to password protect your web directories the pro way.


Great article, would read again.

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